is this real?
A million different things could happen at any given moment but the most important one is now, so try not to miss it.
I used to doubt everything. I felt like I was always waiting for something bad to happen. If things were going too well I felt like it was only a matter time. This was probably something I developed through my childhood because things never stayed “good” for too long but I found that that was no way to live. By worrying about the future I was totally missing my present.
“Our doubts are traitors,
and make us lose the good we oft might win,
by fearing to attempt.”
Questioning the good in front of me also led to me missing the good I needed, the good I already had. I think that was a big reason why it took me so long to commit to Perry. I thought that if I allowed myself to fully believe in him, believe in us then it would lead to disappointment. I have put my faith in so many people who only ended up disappointing me and I didn’t want to go through that with him. I didn’t want to destroy what we had by putting expectations on us. But over time, through his endless patience and devotion, my faith in him and in us grew. Now it’s almost a decade later and my faith in us touches the moon. Through his unconditional love, he is forever reminding me that this is real.